What a random time to have an OE dream!

I had an OE dream! I dreamed that there was some sort of OE reunion where there were people from multiple years there at the same time. Mostly people from the same schools were hanging out with each other more than people from the same year which was weird. And this place that was the OE was really just Goshen College dorms and some hills and farm houses. It looked like Pennsylvania. I remember Rachel Fox sitting on a bed chatting with someone. Also Duncan and my friend Lindsay (who never went to the OE in real life) totally wanted to do each other. I was running around in my underwear half the time but not in a sexual or embarrassed kind of way, just in the; too excited to have time to put my clothes on, kind of way. I remember Matt wouldn't get out of his car but he did a reading of something over a loudspeaker that we all thought was hilarious.

In the Moutains with Matt!

Last night I had a dream that Matt and I were running around these mountains and valleys that looked a lot like the ones around Lake Chelan near Holden. It was around dusk, and when we looked up in the sky there was this big green hexagon that started spinning really fast. We started running toward it but soon came up against a giant cliff. Matt jumped off and when he reached the bottom of the valley, somehow he just shot up the other side, and started running again. I jumped too, and shot up the other side as well. There were rocks and bushes and vines and everything was covered in a light mist, and then I realized we were at the gorge behind the OE, except there was a giant waterfall that we could see. Matt jumped off the side of the gorge and I did the same, but as I was coming up the other side, I could tell I wasn't going to make it all the way to the top. I scrambled to find something to grab on to before I fell back down and found a little ledge, but was only able to hold on to it with my hands and wasn't able to pull the rest of myself onto it. I didn't know where Matt was anymore, but at that point in the dream I remembered a really deep, philosophical conversation Matt and I apparently had about "simply letting go" (that was the phrase that was in my head) so I let go of the ledge and fell until I woke up--a little out of breath and scared, but strangely relaxed.

I hope you all are well. Sending all my love!

upon checking that i was indeed feeling beloved upon this earth, my chaplain at Hope just recited Raymond Carver to me. "and did you get what you wanted....?"

made me think of you all.

xoxoxoxo

Isn't it today that we were all saying goodbye a year ago? Love you and miss you all!

P.S. On a lighter note, Chance and I just played at/ attended a coffee house with Josh Ritter and smoked hookah with him last night. So... Holden is pretty cool.

my tummy feels funny today like it felt a year ago when the end was coming and i didn't want it to be coming. it's odd how bodies remember those sorts of things, isn't it? michigan is beautiful but i'm missing you all and sending kind thoughts your scattered ways.

maybe someday we will all be together again and we will dance

disneyworld

chance and i went to disneyworld, and obviously the first thing we did was get a drink at the bar, because that is where dreams come true. and in dream land disneyworld sells alcohol, apparently.

ps- you guys, im going back to the west coast in less than a month! and im finishing school! woohoo!

Singin' and dancin' togetha.

Last week I had this dream where Sam and Andrew were standing at the top of this giant staircase dancing, and a bunch of us were standing at the bottom watching them and clapping and dancing and laughing. There were wood-panel walls all around us and it was really fun. I miss you guys.

time warp

Hi everyone,
so I had a weird OE dream last night. First of all, I drank this weird shake before bed and was already acting a little woo woo so it's not surprising that I would have a crazy dream. And sometimes when I have OE dreams its just a bunch of us and I can't really make out faces, and if I can then I don't remember. I think Ashley was there, and Chris, and maybe Kasey. But definitely a handful of us. And it was like we were doing this "time warp" thing, like the song from Rocky Horror, but in REAL LIFE (aka dream life). And we would dance across this room and in each section of the room we would either go back in time or forward in time. But when you were in a section you didn't actually go anywhere, you just felt that it was a different year or month or something. So finally I went into a "present time" section, and I had this huge amazing monologue thing (worthy of a Patrick play, I'm sure) and I just told everyone how we shouldn't be going back and forth in time. It felt really meaningful and powerful, so I thought I would share it here. Plus, no one has posted in forever...so, COME ON, guys!

Love,
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hi little family,

here's a little dream for you. i almost wasn't going to put it here because it doesn't feel like a real dream (for lack of story arc) but when i mentioned that to matthew he said - "that's silly, there are no small dreams, only small dreamers" (that part i made up)

okay here it is:

last night i saw chance and i held his elbow, like good friends do, and i said chance, dear chance, how are you? and it was nice to see him but he looked weary.

with love,
llw

elise's doppelganger

I dreamed I was in a bar talking with this girl who looked exactly like Elise but was not Elise. I only knew she was not Elise because she was wearing a mesh sports jersey, baggy jeans, and adidas sneakers. And her hair was really spiky. The weirdest part was, as I was talking to this girl, I could hear Elise's voice talking to me from inside my head. Creepy, huh.

a good ending to a scary dream

i dreamed that i was hired at holden (!) and my mom agreed to drive me there, only on the way she got mad at me and dropped me off on the side of the road in my bare feet. i didn't know what else to do so i just stood there and screamed. it was very scary, but somehow i ended up getting to holden. and when i got there i was so happy to see ashley and chance that i could not breathe.

Hugs

Hey there!
I think I crossed paths with a whole bunch of people (OE and otherwise) at a store mashed with a house earlier in my dream where I saw Lyndi. She was too far away for me to find her before the dream introduced a few more people. Later on, I walked into an old friends house, and Lyndi was standing on the stairs with a couple random people. We hugged and said the usual greetings. When I looked up, I saw into the kitchen where Scott was cooking dinner for a small party and wearing a big diamond earring.

War Dreams.

Last night in dream-land there was a giant war being waged against and unknown enemy, but Duncan rushed into the room I was standing in, fell over and was bleeding. His hair was shaved pretty short, but a big chunk of hair on the top of his head was burned off. He was in charge of something really important too, although I didn't know the specifics. I'm blaming One Hundred Years of Solitude for my war dream.

badasses

so i had another matt dream, and he is probably going to be mad at me for having another one of him like this, because apparently according to my ONE dream about him being my mom (haha), im afraid of telling him about stuff or something to protect his innocence. But i think it is safe to say that we have passed that stage in our relationship after our conversation in holland last week. So matt, I love you like a brother I never had, and take this dream with a grain of salt, please:

last night I dreamt that I was in this room in a place that felt like minnesota and was with a bunch of girls who i didn't really know, and we were all wearing crazy awesome tshirts that we all bought at salvation army. then i see matt outside the window and i yell to him to come over, and im yelling really loudly and with a lot of force. It felt like the kind of yelling like when you are in a large crowded room and you are trying to talk to people. And I remember giggling to myself afterwards because I was so loud, but I wasn't ashamed, I was happy because I was calling for a friend. And finally Matt opened the door and he was wearing this motorcycle helmet and carrying two stuffed animals. I didn't question the fact that he was wearing a badass helmet and also carrying a stuffed animal. I even said to him, "Matt, I like your stuffed animals". And we chatted for a bit, and I realized that one of his toys was the same dolphin stuffed animal that our dog has.

Everyone was there!

I had an incredibly long OE dream last night and although I don't remember specific quotes and actions from everyone, in the dream I knew that everyone from the OE was there. Hooray!

There were four distinct parts to this dream but none of them really connected. The first part we were all together in a foreign country ridding on an old, brick-red bus. The bus had two levels and most of us were on the top, I think, with the wind in our hair. At one point I climbed up a big stump that was attached to the bus for some reason, and sat on top of it. The stump and the climbing were similar to a stump I've sat on at the Holden boat dock. The bus was cruising down narrow streets lined with tall, orange and yellow clay-like houses and other buildings.

In the second part, we were all at the mall that is closest to my house in Iowa. I'm not sure what we were doing there, but Sam and Andrew had these giant hammocks that they were trying to set up in the middle of this little commons area. Eventually the security guard found us and kicked us out. We were all laughing and talking and started walking somewhere else.

In the third part, it was really snowy outside and we were all bundled up to play in the snow for awhile. Some were building forts and some were just sitting in the snow. I started making a bunch of tiny snowballs really fast and throwing them at people and I had surprisingly good accuracy. I hit Patrick and Chris Esh and Chance in the face with my tiny snow balls--just like, BAM BAM BAM--and then I started running.

In the last part (I actually woke up after the snow part, but fell back asleep and had this dream) we were all hanging out in the laundry room at Holden and this really weird animal was walking around on the floor. It kind of looked like a really big frog, but it's eyes were bigger than quarters and on the front of it's face, instead of the sides. It had snake-skin that was black with orange stripes and it kind of jumped like a frog, but would also walk. We called it a mouse--I don't know why. When it appeared everyone was really afraid of it and I stood on a table with Chance to get away from it. Chance was saying to me, "I told you it had a big head," and "Oh, GOD. OH MY GOD. Look at it's head." It really did have a big head but Chance was freaking out. Then Doug walked in the back door with a bucket and the "mouse" opened it's jaw, insanely wide, and Doug poured something sort of liquid-y and sort of chunky and red into it's mouth. After that, we knew for some reason that we were safe.

I don't remember much of this dream.

I just remember being outside with Chance and Elise and then this other non-OE person was jumping down these stairs with a potato sack on his feet. And then Elise and I were standing in a doorway.

Pot Luck

A couple nights ago, I dreamed that all us OE kids met up at this totally random place to have a pot luck. I took my plate to the table, and standing next to Matt, I saw his dish was white rice with black beans on the top. Rather plain, thought I, but I would never complain about beans and rice. Then I moved to the next dish by Andrew-- kidney beans and white rice, set up in the same way as Matt's. Lyndi was next and she used butter beans on the bed of rice. So, lots of beans and rice filled my plate, which had me confused. Did they all plan this? Or were their brains simply all working in the same wavelength? You had managed to make white rice with different kinds of beans in each dish, so you may have plotted this strange coincidence of foodstuffs. There were a few other foods on the table, but I didn't care as much about those, as my OE friends hadn't made them. Perhaps cabin...9 boys(?, oh gosh I can't really remember) made some bread. Now I know in real life, the pot lucks we had were wonderfully tasty and full of variety. Yet I feel that all of us partaking of the food stuffs in my dream would have no problems getting their daily carbs and fiber... if you catch my drift. In light of this dream, I hope that all of you are eating well. One of the main principles of Ayurvedic medicine is prevention- your diet is the first medicine. So eat balanced meals you college kids :) Lurv.

Happy Anniversary!

Hey, wasn't the 29th the first official day of our OE term? I'm pretty sure it was. Happy friend-iversary my lovelies. I love and miss you all.

this is not a dream

I just bought a pleather jacket.

A school and a knife.

Last night, I talked to Chance on the phone. He was waiting for the train he's riding to Holden to continue its travels to his final destination. We talked about many things, and apparently this led to his appearance in one of my dreams last night. I am sorry to say that no other OErs made this dream, but at least that means you have escaped the inevitable chaos of my mind in the astral plane.

Chance and I ran into each other at a school. I've dreamed of this school many hundreds of times before in similar incarnations, as it is the dream-version of my horrible middle school. (Not that the school is horrible, but my experiences there were at the time-puberty, cruel kids, hopeless crushes, and all that sort of thing.) Anyways I came to this scene with Chance after I went into the building presumably to get out of the craziness going on outside. We ran into each other near the orchestra room- my old stomping grounds- and I showed him my knife. Some sort of protection from someone or something I can't remember now. Don't worry Chancey, the knife wasn't going to be used on you. Then we headed off together, further into the bowels of the school. I'm pretty sure we got separated before I woke up.

And I'd sent a thought into the universe before going to bed that I might have lucid dreams, or at least dream of some important image for my future. I guess that's the divine's way of thwarting my attempts at foreknowledge. Instead I got to "visit" a friend who's going away for a year :( so I suppose I should be grateful for that.