What a random time to have an OE dream!

I had an OE dream! I dreamed that there was some sort of OE reunion where there were people from multiple years there at the same time. Mostly people from the same schools were hanging out with each other more than people from the same year which was weird. And this place that was the OE was really just Goshen College dorms and some hills and farm houses. It looked like Pennsylvania. I remember Rachel Fox sitting on a bed chatting with someone. Also Duncan and my friend Lindsay (who never went to the OE in real life) totally wanted to do each other. I was running around in my underwear half the time but not in a sexual or embarrassed kind of way, just in the; too excited to have time to put my clothes on, kind of way. I remember Matt wouldn't get out of his car but he did a reading of something over a loudspeaker that we all thought was hilarious.

In the Moutains with Matt!

Last night I had a dream that Matt and I were running around these mountains and valleys that looked a lot like the ones around Lake Chelan near Holden. It was around dusk, and when we looked up in the sky there was this big green hexagon that started spinning really fast. We started running toward it but soon came up against a giant cliff. Matt jumped off and when he reached the bottom of the valley, somehow he just shot up the other side, and started running again. I jumped too, and shot up the other side as well. There were rocks and bushes and vines and everything was covered in a light mist, and then I realized we were at the gorge behind the OE, except there was a giant waterfall that we could see. Matt jumped off the side of the gorge and I did the same, but as I was coming up the other side, I could tell I wasn't going to make it all the way to the top. I scrambled to find something to grab on to before I fell back down and found a little ledge, but was only able to hold on to it with my hands and wasn't able to pull the rest of myself onto it. I didn't know where Matt was anymore, but at that point in the dream I remembered a really deep, philosophical conversation Matt and I apparently had about "simply letting go" (that was the phrase that was in my head) so I let go of the ledge and fell until I woke up--a little out of breath and scared, but strangely relaxed.

I hope you all are well. Sending all my love!

upon checking that i was indeed feeling beloved upon this earth, my chaplain at Hope just recited Raymond Carver to me. "and did you get what you wanted....?"

made me think of you all.

xoxoxoxo

Isn't it today that we were all saying goodbye a year ago? Love you and miss you all!

P.S. On a lighter note, Chance and I just played at/ attended a coffee house with Josh Ritter and smoked hookah with him last night. So... Holden is pretty cool.

my tummy feels funny today like it felt a year ago when the end was coming and i didn't want it to be coming. it's odd how bodies remember those sorts of things, isn't it? michigan is beautiful but i'm missing you all and sending kind thoughts your scattered ways.

maybe someday we will all be together again and we will dance

disneyworld

chance and i went to disneyworld, and obviously the first thing we did was get a drink at the bar, because that is where dreams come true. and in dream land disneyworld sells alcohol, apparently.

ps- you guys, im going back to the west coast in less than a month! and im finishing school! woohoo!

Singin' and dancin' togetha.

Last week I had this dream where Sam and Andrew were standing at the top of this giant staircase dancing, and a bunch of us were standing at the bottom watching them and clapping and dancing and laughing. There were wood-panel walls all around us and it was really fun. I miss you guys.